- Sertraline – 150mg
- Bupropion – 75mg
- Clonazepam – 0.75mg
- Brexpiprazole – 2.0mg
Dear CS,
I know you are going through a lot right now. I know you have it in you, the strength and willpower, to not only come out of this time period healthy but better then you were before. The dissociation is real, as you are. The feeling of death will pass and “Reality” will set in.
I understand your struggles and fears of not knowing where all the pain is coming from. The medications are working, allowing time and energy to heal from past traumas.
Your family is hurt, but not broken. They are here for you and want to help in any way possible. Reach out to them when needed or even not needed. That is a defining characteristic of family.
Remember to take care of yourself. Your family is better off with you here, whole, and able. Caring for yourself is not selfish, but rather necessary for everyone’s wellbeing and welfare. Do not lose sight of your journey you are on – who you are, what you are, why you are.
Remember the time in the redwoods where you lost your humanity. Nothing existed but the present. You were beyond mindfulness. But, your existence mattered then for look at what you have accomplished and your existence matters now for look at your potential.
Soon, sooner than you think, you will be back in the real world. Take this time, the time in the hospital, to focus on yourself and yourself-care.
Live in your strength.
In Love, CS